287 days left

DAY 78

It’s been a thought-provoking week! So much going on and so little time! What’s been happening and what have I learned? Well, I’ve learned that prayer does create miracles, lol. I had mentioned before that I was planning on suing my son’s school, but after these couple of days I’ve decided not to. Yes, I could have a case under many grounds, but I don’t think it’s beneficial for us during this hectic time in our lives. There were days that I was back and forth speaking to different offices filing a complaint, but my mood was becoming volatile. I didn’t like who I was becoming! It was such a frustrating feeling. I felt as if my determination was being fueled by anger. It wasn’t me. I was packing, and at the same time arguing with people on the phone about my son’s case. I realized that I was getting nowhere. I decided to try praying about it. I didn’t really know how to go about it but I needed my mind and heart to be at peace. I wasn’t getting anywhere on my own so I thought why not give it a try. I was relieved to know how much better I felt. It felt more like I had decided to let go all of my anger and take off that worry off my shoulders. I felt so stress-free.

Sometimes, people tend to take on so many worries that they don’t realize how it affects them mentally, physically, and how others can be affected too. I don’t think it’s worth it. I know that for myself I kept letting my stress-factors mess with my relationships with my kids and it wasn’t a pretty sight. I’d like to think that we all deserve to have that inner child within reach. Kids don’t worry about the faraway future. They only think of what’s going on at that moment and what’s next. They try to get away with having fun. I think that’s a pretty good plan. My mind wonders away often thinking of so many things. Yes, as adults we do have responsibilities but it shouldn’t be a hassle to enjoy life at the same time. I’m always about the bills, if we have enough for food, how my kid’s are doing, and how I need to lose weight, etc. All of it affects me, especially the latter one. Sometimes, I’m so concerned about losing weight that I miss out on enjoying myself. This week was such a stressful one that I decided to splurge on buying junk food. We bought ice cream, chips, candy, soda, etc. It felt great taking a break. It may not be the healthiest, but once in while the mind and body needs it. It’s not for the nutritional value but for emotional value that lifts up your mood.

Stress can be such a downer. I know that for me it gives me headaches, my body aches, my immune system grows weak so I get sick right away, and I always so physically exhausted. Overworking the mind can also overwork your poor body. I was afraid that allowing myself to refocus that it would take away my productivity, but it didn’t. I was just able to reboot my brain, making it more efficient. I wasn’t letting the stress get to me. I was changing my strategy. I was able to vocalize my emotions, and surprisingly received plenty of support from my husband and kids. I didn’t have to do anything on my own. Cooking, laundry, cleaning, packing, and our daily routines became a team effort. Usually, I would do all of it on my own. I wouldn’t ask for help, because I thought that it wasn’t anybody else’s job but mine. I had left out my family out of so they would end up with my resentment. When they began to help out this week, we communicated more and we all learned to appreciate each other more. I love how my life is evolving into a happier one.

November is coming up soon and we’ll be able to move into our new place soon. I already know my kids’ new schools. I’ll be close to many places where I can apply for jobs. I’ll be closer to my friends. I’ll be able to have a park nearby so I can run. Exciting to be opening a new chapter in my life! I think one of goals is make sure to make life easier. I’m tired of struggling. I know that it won’t be easy but I’m glad to be moving forward instead of falling back. I sound so cliché but I think I owe it to my giddiness. I’m hoping that by the next time I log in that I’ll do it at my new place.


*Stress can severely affect you emotionally as well as physically.

*Prayer or meditation can ease your stress.

*Voice out your emotions.

*Ask for help with everyday routines.

*A happier me means a happier family.

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